awaiting liberation
Thursday, April 28, 2005
5 more days to the end of all this madness... I'm now trying to start studying CEP (the module which I so very dread.. which I failed my mid-term baaaadly) but I really dunno how to start... still I need to coz I (ironically) need to neutralise the buang maths exam i took earlier today...
I wanted very much to blog about maths earlier on but I guess it's better to forget about it.. face the music again when the results are released.... *sigh* but I dun deny i was contemplating to not stay in hall if my CAP sucked... and resign to the fate of a true chao-mugger.. and my new hall will be the central library...
At home now.. with my hi-fi blasting away (yah i so miss my hifi when i'm in hall).. air con turned on (I usually don't turn on the air con at night but today was unusually swealtering hot!) and with all the mess on my desk.. tuition stuff.. old notes I wanna stack away for good.. my bank statements and phone bills and debit card statements i wanna file.. even my digital ixus box is still smack right in the middle of my desk waiting to take its place in the cupboard.. just to lazy to... Feel so sorry and guilty now.. no wonder my mother's been complaining my room's the worst in the whole house.. guess with the next 3 months spent here.. it's time to bring it back to shape...
Talking about shape.. i saw CWC (my ocs buddy) outside the gates of the engine hellhole (exam hall) just now and he told me I was fatter haa.. like the good ol days when he always suan me about being fat and always fighting with him for that extra second faster in 2.4 or SOC... so it's a resolute that I swim everyday during the 3 months break.. nmind if I swim alone.. of course if you want to join me i'm more than glad.. =)
I know you are sniggering away.. it's just like my new year resolution to lose 0.5kg every month haha.. but to make myself sound determined..
I WILL SWIM EVERYDAY DURING THE VACATION!!!!
(caps.. big font.. enough?)
AMERICAN IDOL 4
Religiously catching this show.. i think it's getting daunting now that all the good singers are gone.. and it's nothing compared to season 3.. i think all that are left now are lousy.. and Randy Jackson just says the same old inconclusive stuff like "you noe man.. you were a bit shaky... your notes were a bit off.. but you're da bomb.. but i dunno... it's just not for me.... aw mann..." and Paula would just praise them to the skies like some bimbotic schoolgirl with no professional input at all. At least Simon Cowell's still putting in the cynical remarks.. which is why the show is worth watching.. but think he's running out of impressive stuff to say.
And wat happened to the guest judges?
Well.. this week Constantine's out.. and the radio's talking about it all day... but somehow I'm glad he got kicked out.. coz he's damn cocky.. always giving the smirk thinking he's damn popular.. I guess america thought it that way and decided to give him the boot. yeah.
But the fatso better be next.
TELEVISION
Talking about boot.. yeah I decided that there are so many good shows on TV that I wanna watch!!! So let me list down the shows that I decided to occupy my weeknights once the exams are OVER... (yes this is aunty chio the gogglebox king speaking...)
An Eye For a Guy
(the linking word is 'boot') yah I missed the previous episode!! Though I only know who she decided to kick out.. hope someone bittorrents it or something so I can download.. but of course.. why you should watch it is because
Denise Keller is so damn CHIO
chio as in not clementchio の chio but she's darn pretty/beautiful/elegant/mesmorsing/smart/witty/cute/funny/alluring watever you wanna call it from all angles.. and watever she does its just so *fwah*.. it's not like some girls are pretty only at certain angles and plain like shit when they break away from their photogenic pose.. Denise Keller is just.. so.... angelic.
For the girls.. ok the guys are quite shuai too lah. nuff said.
Beautiful Illusions 镜中人
Fann Wong acting as a schizo!! (however you spell it).. the plot till now is already so interweaved and perplexing and expecting to get even more crazy.. oooh but I like these type of shows! Let see.. Thomas Ong killed Fann Wong's father when he was young.. went to jail.. came out and got together with the (unknowing?) Fann Wong.. while the other side of Fann Wong got together with Thomas Ong's long-lost brother who is some rich brat.. and there's Yvonne Lim the potential accidentallyfindouteverything character who dunno what's going to happen to her... and Thomas Ong refuses to acknowledge his long-lost mother for dunno wat reason and Fann Wong's mother is crazy for dunno wat reason.. and this and that and you dunno who's the bad guy until show develops whoa okok.. so watch watch!! Even if you don't catch it.. nmind.. I'm bittorrenting every episode into my computer haa...
Chase
Utt meets his school-time crush like 10 years later. Hmm ring a bell anyone? (question directed at evelyn actually)
Not like it matters anymore now haa.. the real reason why it's worth watching coz of Linda Liao. Period. But after watching a few episodes the meeting-after-10-years part (a more familiar number was 7 I think haa) wasn't wat I fantasized it to be...
Again, not like it matters anymore ;P Relax.....
如来神掌
The series is over. And by now you know I'm a sucker for gongfu serials. I'm putting this down because this is the 1st marathon-drama I'm going to endure through once I finish the exams. Just like I finished Weiliang's 倚天屠龙记 in 3 days after last sem.
天龙八部
Again it's plain because I'm a sucker for gongfu serials. Though I think the show overall sucks.. too cheeena.. sometimes a bit boring.. but it sticks closely to the book.. and the effects are.. fwah.. hollywood-style.
OC
Actually I have to finish watching OC 1 first before embarking on OC 2... so the next series I'm going to conquer will be toad's collection of OC 1... then the OC 2.. the follow up with the Channel 5 episodes as 'rewatching'.
LEAVING HALL
2 days ago I (together with Kayping and Felicat) helped Suzanne lug her stuff to the main road to send her off. Peering to the empty room it kinda dawned on me that she's the first 'casualty' to leave us. And there was the tinge of we're-not-going-to-see-ya-in-a-long-time feeling.. the feeling of an uncontrollable potential loss of a good friend.
And before she left the room she said "Bye bye Sheares Hall. Bye bye Block D. Thanks for everything." She said with a smile. But I know you weren't smiling inside.
Well.. so much for stupid consequences for stupid decisions. Wanted to tell ya this that day itself but guess was too sleepy to think straight (i didn't sleep the night before)..
Thanks for the 1 year of great friendship.. rapport.. your siaozarborness.. your characteristic pessimistic-illusionary-emotional moodswings... Thanks for always being at the butt of our jokes even though you're screaming with fury inside (you'll definitely miss them from now on).. Remember the 2 big advice I gave you (I won't be surprised if you forgot them) and will try to jio you for block events next year but we all know that things will be different now not physically in hall. Good luck in your future path in this wretched university that's why I hope you get your NOC offer. And of course... hope you find your special someone outside the walls of the Sheares gallows. .
You know.. everything will be so much more dull now that you, such a colourful character, are exiting from the arena.
Of course, the best thing you can do now is to reverse the situation by finding a nice corner in Felicat's room and bunk in.. if not.. well you can consider the level 3 offer.. hur hur...
Sigh.. Separation is always not a good feeling.. it's just like the before-army days.. when I thought it was almost definite that the mafbrothers will 'disband' in the course of NS.. but we survived strongly till now. Just how much effort we want to keep the friendship going.
And this separation feeling will surface again.. and again... and again... when people from hall come and go.. and everyone'll be trying so hard to maintain so many friendships that it's only possible to have a core group of friends and manymanymany hi-bye friends.. hi-bye friends that we once spent good times together.. hi-bye friends that conversation topics can only span around the past everytime we meet... and hi-bye friends that soon play a functional role rather than an emotional icon in life.
That is.. part of Durkheim's theory of Functionality. Ah my sociology has come to good use.
*deep breath*
G-STRINGS
Ok on a lighter note I was talking to bx and realised he was selling g-strings at 2 for $3.90 for his YEP fund raising! Wat a crazy thing to sell.. so cheap some more haha... too bad not near buaya week or something otherwise would have bought for all the girls or something... haa like last time me and Mukund bought bras for all the girls in PUBCO haaaa...
So er.. if anyway want G-strings for a good cause.. yah I can help you get them.
Cheap.
MONEY MAKING
Bong sent this link...
Some money-making idea which sends you spam and let you earn money for every spam you read... whoa for once spam is inviting.. hmm maybe that's why this will work. Click on the picture above for more information... and sign up for it if you want.. no harm mah.. it's like easy money....
Well.. and for those who are using MSN 6.0.. shame on you! Get out of the Ice Age and download MSN 7.0! And for those who are not using messenger plus...
Go download it! Click on the banner!
Actually if you dun wanna download it also click on the banner.. haa gives me a chance to win a PSP.. =D
Whoa you survived till here... think this is my longest blog entry yet.. yes yes.. that's what happens if I don't blog for so long.. ideas just get crammed in my head and I have to let it all out.. maybe this is blog-therapy. Will it's like 4 hours since I started.. with studying and blogging intermittently..
5 more days till the end of exams.. maybe you can expect another superduper long entry again then.
Till then... Happy Labour Day!
For those still in the midst of the torture.. good luck.
~ciao.
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不见棺材不流泪
Monday, April 25, 2005
Yes.. that's what I'm feeling now.. I just finished 3 out of my 5 papers and now I find the immense inertia to start studying for my next one.. why? Simply because I got FOUR days to the next paper... think i got bloody hell a lot of time to study and so now after dilly-dallying for one whole day i'm now officially left with
THREE
days to study for my Maths exam.
(which.. i know i totally suck at)
There seems to be nothing to write about.. maybe the only feat worth mentioning is i managed to survive not sleeping for 3 whole days just before my 1st 2 shiong papers... thats equivalent to like 63 hours of awakeness with 1/2 hour intermittent naps in between.. whoa.. even in army I also never push myself until that hard.. haa..
And of course.. for my own memory's sake.. 20th April.. the best day I ever had in business library =)
And so now my life has been revolving around books.. notes.. exam papers.. libraries.. ivles... forums... block lounge... green tea.. grapes... books.. notes... exam papers... exam papers..... can't wait for all this shit to end.
9 more days to freedom.
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Blogging admidst studies (5 more days)
Sunday, April 17, 2005
"You're really looking forward to tonight, aren't you? Well, you have every right -- especially since the morning and afternoon look like they'll be quite busy. Do what you have to do to take care of your responsibilities to others, then be sure to save some energy to take care of your responsibility to yourself. You know what they say about all work and no play? It's all true. "
Not that i'm ban-tan (superstitious) or something but sometimes i marvel at how uncannily true this horoscope is.. So when I woke up my brother started hounding me with millions of maths questions from his homework... but of course.. the event "tonight" that I'm really really looking forward to was....
ELECO CAMPFIRE!
27th Students' Council was the best thing that ever happened to my life. Who would have thought that.. after so many years.. after so many of us went overseas.. after all of us have entered university.. with the impending examinations in less than a week.. we, the most senior council around, still had the best attendence! (not counting 30th of course.. they just graduated so damn free)
Though the programme was largely the same (as in the past 5 years) with the exception of the new kinky tape-a-guy-to-the-table-vertically game, it was the company that mattered most I guess.. reliving the once-17 feeling again (I'm 22 already by the way.. the oldest would be Jeffry at 23).. singsong.. cheer.. dance.. makeafoolofourselves....
But the weariness of growing up could still be felt.. the inertia to hit the dance floor was greater.. even for the MafBrothers (maybe coz of the lack of dance partners).. the spontaniaty to try wacky stuff was sluggish.. but twas just a matter of slow startup.. soon everyone couldn't resist the I Got My Eyes Set... On... You... when the music started...
I danced with a 31st... toad and I 'broke up' a pair of 2 gal dance partners (their batch had more girls than guys) and joined them.. and only to realise halfway that I had danced with her exactly during last year's ELECO Campfire.. (she was still an elect then).. Wanted to tell her there and then but stopped coz it was kinda wierd.. she might not even remember.. haa
Well well.. so er.. yeap.. I've heeded my horoscope's advice to have a smashing good time.. ch..ch..ch..ch..che..chec..check it out!
Click here for photos!
Minjie as MisterSingapore??!!
Mister Singapore 2005
Can't believe this bloke will enter Mr. Singapore competition hahaaa 
Haa.. ok wat a cockster.. ask me help him advertise for him.. so er.. go to the website and vote for him.. haa dunno wat you will get in return though.
Yah for you girls out there.. he's still unattached.
I wonder wat rubbish he will say during the QnA at the competition hahaaa...
Quek Interviewed!
Received a few SMSes this morning...
Dyan: Hey! go read sunday times. e article bout e racist scholar! guess who got interviewed! =p
Chye: Yo go read sunday times and see if you can spot quek's quote of e day
I was already on the car to school when i turned on the phone to check the SMSes..
Me: Did we happen to bring Sunday Times out?
Mum: Sunday Times? No, why?
Me: My friend got interviewed.
Mum: Interviewed for what?
Me: Not sure. Some racist thing I guess.
Dad: So that is your friend ah? It's quite a bad report you know. Got his full photo and everything.
Whoa so when I reached hall I msged toad immediately to buy Sunday Times when he 'books in'.
And the moment toad came in with the loot I rushed to his room to read the article.. only to find the article on Chengzhan instead.. and our dear Quek only had a grand total of
ONE LINE.
So much for the anticipation. Haha.. though i'm glad the person under fire is not Quek himself... which brings me to..
Chengzhan's Blog...
So the newspaper article was almost a full page article with Chengzhan's photo (albeit a grainy loserish photo which doesn't show his face properly) splashed across the page. And this was like the 2nd sensational news report that draws it's source from blogs. The previous one was Cuiwen's.. at that time I already felt it was stupid reporting that the article always referred to her blog for quotes.. and now they are firing CZ for comments made in his own personal space on the web.. furthermore it was web protected.
Correction: his own personal space? Weblogs are not personal I know.. but isn't there the established rule out there that
1. If you're not invited, don't read.
2. If you are reading, it's only courtesy to let the author know.
3. If you don't like what you are reading, get lost.
...?
How can anyone be fired for what he posts on the web using another pseudo-name? (ok although the URL has his name staring blatently at the reader)
How can the newspaper report what is written on weblogs as the 'truth'. I mean I can set up a blogspot account called abunehneh.blogspot.com give myself a pseudoname like irrilaopokxitudinalselfishsissyfart and call myself Lee Xin (ahem.. any coincidence purely non-intentional.. haha) and start raving all sorts of wild remarks myself wat.. and have people shooting this website down like that?
Whoever blew this matter up ought to be condemned to..
Anyway I think i chanced upon her blog.. (I forgot how.. googled or something) and I think she's a lawyer-to-be.
Was supposed to be reading my Sociology readings (on religion.. how apt.. the next chapter would be on ethnicity...) but I ended up spending an hour+ on the SPUG forums (where it all originated) reading the whole 30 pages of posts instead.. scary how something probably meant as a joke (like all TCHS people like to crack jokes like these) can get so out-of-hand. Though I was surprised that towards the end I spotted some familiar nicks posting to defend cz.
Do you really know a person just by reading his blog?
So a few points about blogs
1. Don't be naive and put your name all over your blog. You never know when you may become (in)famous. e.g. Cuiwen.
2. The blog is not your personal space. There are assholes out there (i'm referring to you if I don't know you personally or I didn't tell you personally my blog address) who are just kaypoh and ready to bite you in your butt coz they dun really know what happen in your real life.
3. So be nice and friendly and politically and diplomatically correct and put on the I'm-an-angel-sent-from-heaven attitude when blogging (like you don't already do so in real life).
Someone should give us blogging freedom-of-speech. If not it's back to pen and paper in locked diarys under our pillows.
So much for everything i have to write.. back to my sociology readings.. if not sleep (it's almost 5am)... And I think for once I'll have to give my horoscope's advice for tomorrow a miss:
Here's another day that's been specially designed for fun. Okay, so you've got a lot to accomplish, work- or project-wise. So what? You only go around once, and you never, ever take days off. It's time.
I think it's trying to make me fail my exams. Haha..
~Goodnight.
Signed off at
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Turn time backwards
Thursday, April 14, 2005
That's it.. procrastinate the whole day + doing 'useless' stuff in the day = studying till this unearthly hour.
I promise after this post I'll shuff my laptop into the cupboard and lock it up once and for all!
Here's a rather significant portion of the today worth pondering about. (In chronological order)
1145hrs
Was totally brain drained by today's Practical Exam (which fortunately wasn't too bad phew) so decided to play the long-abandoned Warfare Incorporated on my Tungsten while trying to study at YIH. Yah I finally managed to complete that stage which i have been stuck at since before-ORD.. looks like I can complete the game soon!
1230hrs
Chye arrived and disturbed me in my game. So I took the opportunity to check my handphone placed on the table.
1 missed call.
*check*
xy 12:10pm
*quickly call back*
She was driving already. Whined about her practical and told me she has to return the car so cannot study at YIH =( She was driving anyway so couldn't talk much. =(
*check SMS*
xy (11:56) : I'm soooo dead..
Like there was no point replying right? Since I called...?
1930hrs
Back in hall. Plugged in my laptop and checked my yesterday's mail. Happened to click on my daily horoscope mail for today.. which reads
Someone may come to you for comfort or advice, and your voice and manner will be so soft and understanding that they'll feel better immediately. This wouldn't be a bad time to say 'I love you,' either.
Now.. wat if the above sequence of events were reversed? Anyway it logically should be anyway.. I should have checked my mail last night.. I should have checked my SMS 1st.. I shouldn't have missed that call.. I should have.... followed my horoscope's advice..?
有缘无分吧.
Signed off at
5:00 am
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Computing Practical Exam
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
So much for the 'finale blog'...
It's 5.20 am now and I just finished yet another past-year practical exam paper.. gave up on trying to make my program generate the output it's supposed to generate.. only to find out some of the codes given in the suggested solution were not taught...
pissed. like I wasted my time figuring out some shit which prob wouldn have been very easy.
With my practical exam at 8am the next day.. I've decided to challenge the uncle Chow to stay awake all the way until 10+ or 11+ pm today.. where I can recharge until the actual PE.. In the meantime.. it's a long marathon of programming after programming after programming...
Why so last minute?
Well.. blame it on procrastination.
While I give myself a break till 6am.. here I am treading on my blog I so want to forsake but can't help but coming in here to kill some time. Munching grapes and sipping green tea.. yes I'm on my way to becoming truely Zen-like.
And tomorrow (or rather later today) will be another day camped at YIH.. to give out pamphlets to unwary ORDed guys.. to entice them into signing up for SECC. Today alone I saw Gary who said hi to me 1st and the dumdum Yansheng who said hello by putting his cupped fingers at the corner of his forehead.. took me a while to realise wat that gesture meant.
So tomorrow 12pm to 2pm I'd be attending my last lecture ever in this semester. So while the rest of the LT celebrates.. i dread at the fact that.. I won't get to see her again...
Sigh..
tigong bobby i sit with her tomorrow.
Time for the next leg of the marathon.
さようなら!
Signed off at
5:15 am
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15
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
15 more days to exams.. and boy am I starting to get worried.. So probably this is my last post before the end of exams.. yes, I AM SENDING MY LAPTOP TO JAIL AGAIN!
Same rule applies though: I will only use it for as long as the battery lasts.. i.e. no charging the whole week.. which means you'll still see me online don't worry =)
Just came back from Road Relay Captain's treat.. have you ever felt so full that the food spills over to your limbs and cloggs up your brain so you can't study and just wanna sit motionlessly on the chair.. burping and farting away?
I've been eating so much since yesterday's run-cum-situps session.. mega supper as I slogged through my programing lab through the night.. early breakfast before heading for the computer lab to seek help.. lunch at Science after the crazy battle with the keyboard.. caught my well-deserved sleep as the rain pattered outside the windows before waking up for dinner and now the this captain's treat....
What a sludge I am.. I swear never to eat supper again.. no matter how at-the-doorstep's convenience Uncle Vincent's supper may be.. REMEMBER: Suppers make me sleepy at night and fat in the morning.
I'm running with Weijie at 0630 am tomorrow morn.
I WILL RUN WITH WEIJIE AT 0630 TOMORROW MORNING!
Just back from a bath.. still full.. but better.. time to start mugging.. I'm slowly typing this as thoughts train into my mind as this is like.. my finale blog.
Branch outing cancelled.. damn thought could dig out a treat from my ex-boss tomorrow.. haa.. as well as meet them as a whole branch once again... Seems like everyone's so damn stunt.. MH (the one whose grandmother passed away recently.. if you've been following my blog) just got married (yah married.. er.. 'accident' haa).. and now this last minute cancellation of the outing.. hai..
Well at least I can still catch my American Idol.. which..
I MISSED MY AMERICAN IDOL TODAY!!
Damn.. but no worries.. I registered it in my Palmtop already.
Recently i just found out the amazing powers of using the eyes..
Have you ever looked into someone's eyes.. and have her look back into yours.. and suddenly feel totally powerless?
It was wonderfully strange.. consuming.. powerful....
Which led me to test out the same power on my random subjects..
And then I understood that eyes could talk. Eyes can bridge connections. Eyes can intimidate. Eyes can mesmerise.
眼睛果然是灵魂之窗
Unfortunately (or rather fortunately) it doesn't work on guys.. for me.. haha.
I guess there are other things I wanna talk about but they are not important for now..
See you guys 4 weeks later.
~Ciao
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