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Friday, August 24, 2007
It was not only recently when Fangxi told me she found my blog that I realised that Hey I Actually Still Have A Blog...
Haven't been updating since i ended my IA.. had been a full time Ragger since. Full-time-Ragger = No-Day-No-Night-Slog-Till-You-Drop-To-Finish-The-Bloody-Float. Come to think of it.. it's really amazing how I managed to pull that whole period of being Vice-Chair of Sheares Rag without even my parents knowing about it. This whole rag experience has been fulfilling.. yet somehow with blemishes of dissatisfactions. It's really hard to put down in words.. But I'm sure I'll remember this experience for life. After all, it is a FANTASTIC ending to my Sheares Hall career:
- CHANCELLORS SHIELD
- BEST FLOAT DESIGN
- BEST FLOAT PRESENTATION
So what now? Year 4 already. I'm strongly resisting my backside itchiness to take up any important positions in hall. After all I assuredly rejected the biggest one just a few months back. And it's interesting to see how things have turned out since. It also irks me to see what some people are doing up in the political circle of hall. There are so many little sheep around. How many actually can step out and see the bigger picture?
I want the hall to do well. I'll help whatever I can, however I can, but as a normal Shearite. Leave me out of all the other nonsense.
Which brings be to the rubbish Pageant thing. Can you believe it? CLEMENT CHIO is the pageant representative of Block D. I thought it was a whole lame bloody joke at first but when it was "confirmed" no amount of whining I did to Ivan, Xuanjie or Kenneth could shake it off. KNNNBCB. I mean I'm used to making a fool of myself in public and this competition definitely entails this factor but the very fact that it is coined a 'Pageant' means that the contestants need to look good which I certainly am confident that I'm no where near pageant material. So yes, I'm being saboed to be a clown. So until the whole saga is over I have to get used to that fact that I'll be ridiculed constantly to be unfittingly in a beauty contest. And I bloody hell NOT win, otherwise I'll be stuck with the ridicule for another year. Yes, for the Block, I take this shit up.
Talking about the Block brings IBG which is running hot and furiously now. Block D still remained pretty and handsome as always though we maintained our 2nd in Basketball, this time more convincingly than last year. Being an ex-Blockhead means I have to show face at all IBG events, or should I? I should, I need to show support to the newly stepped up Block heads and Block comm; but I want my own time.. I desperately need to focus on studies and my FYP. I hope being a final year student gives me the passport to do so.
Final year students.. Year 4 students.. actually there's much talk among us on this topic already.
We're actually quite an amazing batch. So old, so much presence, so siao on, so bonded. I'm so glad to be in this batch.
Yet precisely after 4 years in hall making so many friends and acquaintances I start to wonder how many of them I will be really close to? How many will I keep in contact with after I leave this place? Other than MAFBrothers all my other groups of friends have been social circles that whizz pass my life. That's why I was sad to leave Leeds, because I was sure then that the Leeds Peeps will be one of these social circles. True enough, I'm really too tied down to keep in contact with any of them. It's just my personality - I don't open up to people; and I don't delve to understand people. And the retribution - I don't make real good friends.
For the same reason, plus the fact that I really don't know how to make girls happy, is why my love life after so long is a completely empty vessel. I've like given up.. though it's hard to forget some people. I've missed so many boats already. And this current boat of kids are really too young that I don't take them seriously. Makes me feel like a pedophile if i ever have designs on any of them at all. So I take my bow out of the hunting zone, and just be a contended bystander on the safari.
OMG.. i didn't mean for this post to be so long and emo. But after not blogging for so long I guess stuff just rattles off. Thanks for surviving till here. Thanks for dropping by this page at all. I don't know when I'll ever blog again. I really want to be a good student. Tomorrow is FYP day. I MUST DO MY FYP!
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