Reality Check
Thursday, March 24, 2005
I think i need help.. I need someone to talk to... face to face..
I'm beginning to think I'm living in my own illusionary world.. esp when the images in my dreams and the fantasies i conjure don't seem to surface in real life.. Am I just doing all the wrong things...? Maybe I just miss all the opportunities..? Or maybe.. I don't know what I'm looking for at all....
There just something missing.. maybe there isn't anything at all.. or more of there's this barrier.. this thin transluscent barrier that I so much want to overcome but am trying so hard to. Trying too hard probably. For many a time I think I'm just tired of trying but I can't resist myself from attempting again anyway.. but yes.. failed.
What is this 感觉 I'm looking for if... it doesn't work both ways?
Maybe it's time to take a step back.. and let the birds fly free again.
(Changed my MSN pic and wallpaper)
Signed off at
2:19 am
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