It's just Emotions taking me over...
Sunday, July 10, 2005
I haven't blogged for so long.. I used to blog at work but somehow nowadays I find it hard to concentrate on my callings while blogging.. while other times I just dont feel like blogging.
My last day of work ended on Friday.. and it turned out to be more than just walking out of the office and saying 'bye' to newly found friends.. It was rather.. emotional. Tat and Caroline left on the same day as me.. the rest from the clique will be leaving soon.. and the others who were left behind gave more than goodbyes.. especially from 2 colleagues in their 30s (yeah I never really interacted with people in this age group as like on-par friends before).. one of them was a guy in his late 30s.. suddenly had the urge to treat us to chicken pies (something quite touching coz he usually saves on his lunch). And a nice lady in her early 30s made an effort to have our last lunch with us.. treated us snacks and I could sense the tears forming when we took our final group photo.
Separations are somewhat necessary now and then. And this venture into the working adult world really brought me new experiences into my life.. to know different people esp those outside my chinesehigh-hwachong.. council-hall circle of friends...
The Right One?
I thought I found her. I mean how often do you find a person of the opposite sex that is so much like yourself? Same likes and dislikes.. same interests.. same preference for food (except that she doesn't like eggs).. same craziness/childishness.. and even uncannily.. similar signature. I mentioned to eve about her before.. and when eve asked me to go for it I remember I replied "你以为去巴杀买菜啊?"
Just no feeling. I am still a feeling person.. after all the debate about 感情vs感觉. In my mind there's still this special someone that I can't forget. It's stupid coz in my head I keep telling myself to open up but my heart just doesn't follow.
So weighing the so-called 缘分 and the 天时地利人和 I've concluded that she's probably not meant for me after all. She's more of my long-lost sister.. or maybe she's the female version of Chio (don't scream) except that she's not fat and she doesn't burp... yet. =)
And on top of things I know of someone who has fallen for her. And rather than disappointment I felt like I was really happy for 2 friends to get together (if they do). And if things turn out well she may just be my sister ultimately haha.
Anyway did I mention same preference for food? I take that back.. I realised that she like tomato ketchup on sotahbiahs.. steal baby food from her cousin and ate.... dogfood. That's how crazy she is.
Camp Again
So in a few hours I'd be going for my second camp this holiday season.. a camp I've really been looking forward to not because of the frieshies.. nor the games.. nor the fact that we'll be stayin in some nice chalet in Sentosa.
And my trusty horoscope advised..
"Today's a good day to look up a long lost love or almost-love. Even if nothing romantic comes of it, you'll be glad you made the connection. On the other hand, you never know what might happen. "
Hmph. How apt again.
So till thursday.. this blog will be stagnant.
Oh yah.. just a gentle reminder if you guys don't tag the tagboard will automatically delete itself.. that's what happened to the old one. And you can't expect me to talk to myself rite?
Maybe there's no one reading after all.
Signed off at
3:22 am
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