Regrets
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Yet again I took a cab home after staying in hall for unearthly hours.. Monday I stayed till 3am to persuade SuKiang to be DOSP till like 3am to no avail.. last night I just talked to Weijian (together with Veron) to take up JCRC till like 1am.. and now.. till 4am with ChinTeng.. but still.. it was a blatent rejection.
Now it's almost 6am and my brother is almost waking up to go to school.. in fact my father just opened my room door shocked to see me still awake.. and I'm still up at this unearthly hour because I can't get to sleep.
I feel so attached to Sheares Hall.. so attached to Block D that it's hard to shake myself out of it. Frankly, leaving for exchange in less than 2 weeks I should be spending more time with my family but I never fail to cook up some excuse to go back to cheer for IBG the past few days (I don't even dare to tell my parents I'm going back to hall). I see so much energy in this bunch of year1s in the block.. I feel so happy for xuanjie and cailin to have chosen such a wonderful Block Comm.. to have notices suddenly all over level 4 and everything about IBG so in order.. I'm so happy to see seniors come down help play IBG.. And I just can't help being filled with regret that I'm leaving Block D at this point when everyone is warm and friendly to each other.. seniors.. juniors.. and the whole block is just bustling with activity.
And I can't leave with unsettled business as a Block Head last term. I have yet to put a deeBlocker in this batch of JCRC. But what is it about JCRC that's shutting everyone away? It's a term that's scaring everyone away even before attempting to understand what it's about. Ya know, I've spent so much time persuading SuKiang, Weijian, Ivan to join JCRC such that I'm so tempted to join it myself.. so tempted to be part of the the next JCRC after I come back from SEP... (actually in year 1 it did come as a fleeting joke.. like all of us will join the 27th JCRC in year 4.. 27th JCRC? 27th Council? haha..) Ok but seriously as a year4.. it's suicidal.
Come on guys, the sail is up and the winds are blowing.
We need you to steer it in the correct direction.
For the Hall,
for the Block,
for youself.
Signed off at
5:40 am
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